Nine Years Ago..

Not sure how 9 years have

pasted already but they have. Whitney

was born 6 weeks earlier.

She come to earth a fighter and O'boy

does that still stand true. She is one

tough, sweet, little,

my minds made up, creative,

daddy's girl..

I need to admit that her B-day was

so hard for me. Not sure what

it was. Alot of memories

came back to me regarding her

birth, the days and weeks,

following. What stands out to me this

year is that LIFE GOES ON. Just 

has it did in August of 2002.

I wanted to spend all my time at

Primary Children's but

 I still had a Husband, 2 little boys at

home, household duties, chores etc. 

Tristin started Kindergarten,

Gavin had a b-day turning 3,

Scott still had to go Bow Hunting.

I had a b-day turning 28. Some

parts seem like a blur and I am sure

they need to stay that way.

I know I wasn't on top of my game

during this time.

I also remember how I felt

extremely loved by my father in heaven

knowing that he knew what was best

for me and my family.

I knew he loved Whitney even more

perfectly than I did. I also knew

that if I couldn't have the change to be

her Mom on earth I would be

giving that change in heaven someday.

Don't get me wrong I had bad

days, my heart would ache

my mind would play games with me.

I hated having an empty baby car

seat in the back of my car just in case

they let her come home that day.

I hated feeling like I need to

explain to people how I was doing.

Now, August of 2011

Well, I still have a husband, 

who is my best friend,

and loves me for me!!

Whitney is starting 4th grade,

Tristin is a Freshman,

Gavin's B-day is next week he will be 12.

Payton is 2 and I am glad that

LIFE GOES ON...